A Leap of Faith

I set out today with an open mind and heart, curious to know what messages I may receive. Today seems to have brought in many blasts from the past, and a strange circular message I’m yet to conclude upon.

I’d arranged to meet an old distant acquaintance not seen in almost 20 years, someone so distant I perhaps never even spoke to, now only loosely linked to by a mutual friend. These kind of meet ups are always bizarre. It’s neither a stranger nor a friend, so what is it? And what’s the reason for meeting? Was it a should or did I really feel compelled to meet them?

I’ve recently begun experimenting with activating my pineal gland, to see if that has an impact on dreams, insights, etc. Sometime during the night I received the information that this man either had or represented some sort of message. It was pretty vague, but I just accepted that was there.

Another thing I’ve recently begun experimenting with is releasing anticipation and expectation, and combining this with aiming to look at the world as if I’m experiencing everything for the first time. I thought this was an especially good time to try out these behaviours.

I consciously stepped into flow for the day with the intention of practicing the above as much as possible. We met, briefly as strangers, skipped the small talk, and then effortlessly connected well on many levels. We spent a few hours in the park and I really enjoyed what felt like a very different and refreshing day… I’m unable to categorise the experience, it wasn’t similar to anything else I can think of. So that’s quite intriguing in itself and I wonder how much that’s to do with the act of suspending anticipation and expectation, and viewing everything as if it were new.

Returning home I got straight on the computer and tuned into facebook. Having just put a request out to the universe (and mentioned online) that I’m drawn to soon finding a nice rural retreat to write the Phase 1 stories, I’m keen to see what hints may come via the internet community.

There sat an invite to consider a room to rent in an Osho centre in London. The normal occupant of the room heading off to Sweden for a month. London, not being exactly rural, wasn’t on my list for possible destinations, but the idea of daily meditation in a community is of interest. Often now I just like to throw out a few basic requirements to the universe and stay open to see what comes back, rather than limiting it to what I think I want.

As I was reading up about the room, another blast from the past popped up – an old friend, again from about 20 years ago or more. A guy I used to work with in a restaurant in Croyde.

‘Hello,’ he said. ‘If you’re at a loss of what to do when you’re back in the UK, why not pop over and check out the midnight sun here in Sweden.’

Sweden again… interesting. We’ve been chatting now for a good couple of hours. Turns out he’s a writer too, and living out in nature about an hour north of Stockholm where I lived for a short spell 6 years ago.

So I’m thinking, hmmm…. Osho community or Sweden? Both seeming tempting, as well as my picture of being somewhere in Devon or Cornwall, or some other idyllic setting in the english countryside.

Towards the end of the conversation he just happens to mention his neighbour’s business in passing. Take a look at this link he said. It just happens to display an Osho neo-vipassana retreat happening mid July. A fascinating circular message. Don’t recall receiving one of these before.

So what’s the message dear universe? Are you guiding me towards Osho or Sweden, or both? Neither were really in the picture although I’d love to do some Osho meditations again, having missed them for the best part of a year. And Sweden has been vaguely in the background for a few years.

No decisions yet anyway. Will stay open to see what other offers, opportunities and suggestions emerge. Really enjoying, especially since noticing how much more relaxed I’m becoming with the unknown. This time last year I found it very difficult to relax and just trust. It’s only with practice that it’s become easier. Now, not only do I know something will come, but I’m able to enjoy the process a lot more. And that feels tremendously freeing.