A Leap of Faith

It’s interesting that since I’ve really hit my stride with the Creating Desired Reality phase of this manifesting adventure I’ve felt less inclined to write the blog. It’s not that there’s been nothing to share, more that the time and energy required to write a worthwhile piece is better spent on getting the most important information down in a book.

I’ve begun writing a few pieces in the last few weeks and each time I saw it either turning into hours of work or a load of useless drivel. Or indeed, a combination of the two. And let’s face it, there’s plenty of drivel out there already without me wasting my time and yours creating more.

I’ve found it much easier to share brief, but reasonably meaningful, updates on my facebook page - Kirsten J Deacon - and this is what feels most appropriate for now. It’s always felt best to only share when it comes easily and from the heart, when it’s forced, or I write a piece because I feel I should, it never feels quite as potent. So if you’re on facebook and you want to keep in touch with progress then please join me on there. I will continue this blog of course, I just don’t follow blogger rules of writing regularly and frequently… kind of goes against my philosophy of being free to follow intuition and divine guidance, which often tell me to do otherwise.

Speaking of divine, I decided my 11.11.11/11:11 moment would be a very personal one of connecting with the Divine at a special place in nature near where I’m currently living in Cornwall. I chose this over being part of a flashmob in Totnes Market Square (actually happening about now as I write this) which I was really looking forward to yet not feeling well enough to go due to a virus. Silently & simply connecting with the Divine seemed very symbolic in terms of what I’m currently working on, more so than singing my heart out with community, so I easily made peace with not being able to make it there.

So at 11:11 I stood with my favourite tree and thought about making that connection. As I stood there I wondered why feeling Source, or Spirit, didn’t always come easy. Most often this was because I was trying, putting in effort, instead of allowing. The other thing that came to mind was where I look to connect - I always look ‘out there’, to the sky, to the empty space, and that’s where I feel it. And suddenly, words that I’ve heard spoken many times washed over me consuming my entire being…

The Divine, Spirit, Source is IN EVERYTHING… it IS everything. I was already connected -through all that my eyes could take in, through every particle of air I was breathing, through the bark of the tree I was touching… I was already connecting by default anyway, always have been, for eternity. All I needed to do was remove the blindfold of social conditioning to recognise that.

Yes, I know it’s obvious in words. But sometimes words don’t seem to be enough to allow something to be fully and truly experienced. There can be an intellectual knowing that is so strong it fools you into believing you really know what something feels like.

Aaaaah… these are exciting times indeed! Right now I’m almost entirely focused on what it is to practice unconditional love and acceptance. And I don’t mean knowing that’s what to aim for, or talking about the importance of it, or practicing it on occasion and intending to more frequently. I’m talking about practicing it by default, all the time, and how this may be possible whilst living in the material world and facing the constant, potent, brain-washing that we aren’t and never will be good enough.

A new way of manifesting has presented itself to me. Factually nothing new, but some fundamental reconditioning is needed if I’m going to successfully test it out. It does feel like taking another risk, because it’s quite a significant change to techniques I’d been using. I may have to invest several days or weeks in meditation, but it feels like the final key and if I don’t go with it now I sense I’ll just return to this point in weeks, months or years to come, having wasted time manifesting situations that aren’t quite right.

This morning a piece of channelled guidance received 18mths ago finally fell into place, feeling like a scientific breakthrough… It appears the student is now ready to receive the full teaching. I can’t wait to share more detail, but as with the whole premise of Leap of Faith I’m more interested in sharing proof from my own experience than talking theory. And that, I feel, is where the real value is.